Happy Ash wednesday!

anyone who knows me knows that I'm not a religious person. I grew up in a catholic home. Went to church every Sunday until I was in high school. I went to Sunday school all the way until confirmation. I can't tell you the last time I went to mass. I actually get a lot of mass when I attend. For some reason I stopped going. I'm not sure when I stopped or way but I did. I really don't have a desire to go right now. I do still believe in God and I pray a lot actually. I think we all need to have our own relationship with God, whatever that may be. From what I was taught he will wait for you to come around and he is willing to have whatever relationship you are able to have with him.

All that being said, I still respect some of the catholic traditions. I still give something up every year for lent. I try my best to not eat meat on fridays and ash wednesday. I know the reason behind these traditions, and i kind of like them. I don't know why this still means something to be, but oh well.

This year for lent I decided not to make a deal with God, but a deal with myself. I think that making myself happier will also make God happy, since he wants all of us to be happy anyway. I am giving up giving myself reasons to not work out and fast food. The first day went well. I actually went for a run outside, it was only a mile but it felt awesome. I haven't been trying very hard at working out, or eating better for that matter. I need to step it up. I know I can do this if I just put my mind to it.

My best friend is getting married in June and I want to look great for it. She and my other best friend have been working out like crazy ladies and they look great! So jealous! I will get my ass back into gear. The hardest step is the first one right? here goes nothing!