long time no post

ok...I know its be forever since I posted. I know like no one reads, so I guess no know cares. I've been going thru a lot right now. I'm trying to make me a better version of myself. I know I have my faults, but I'm trying to get over those. I'm trying to be less judgemental, its part of my new years goals...(  I believe in goals, they are easier to achieve). Since making that goal I've been able to be more open to other co workers. i've be able to not judge strangers. It felt great!  I got this goal from my good friend Kim. She is wonderful! She makes me want to be a better person! I'm really trying! I know I have it in me. I'm not sure when or where I became so judgemental. I never used to be this person. I wasn't raised in a family had money at its core. I always valued relationships over money. But, unfortunally I became the person I didn't want to be.

Last year I did some horrible. I ruined my friendship with the first person I trusted in KC. It was my fault. I don't blame anyone execpt me. I know I was in fault. I will never be able to make up what I did. That being said, I can't take back what I did. I know she will never forgiven me, and that is ok. I said my piece with it. I'm moving on. I wish her nothing but the best. I know she can be a great person. I hope nothing but happiness in her life. She really is a nice person at heart.

Since this whole thing I've been really trying to work on myself. I want to be the kind of person that I want to be friends with. I think I have been really good at this. Recently I  became friends with a girls at work that I didn't know very well. I find that I really enjoy having her at work. Its nice to find a different side of someone you work with.

I guess this whole post is about that the person I was and who I want to be. I want to be the person a friend goes to with a problem and I can help them come up with a solution. I feel horrible about what happened in the past but that is the past and I must move on. Thanks for reading!